Familiarity breeds contempt – so goes the well-known saying. And it is true: things which we find terrifying or awe-inspiring or in any other way remarkable, quickly lose that remarkableness the more time we spend in close proximity to them. When I visited London as a tourist, I thought the Tube was the most astonishing, cutting-edge and wonderful invention ever. Imagine – a train that can whisk you from Oxford Street to King’s Road to the Tower of London, all without getting stuck in traffic! Astonishing! But of course now that I have lived in London for years, I forget what an amazing feat of engineering it is (and what a privilege safe, reliable public transport is!) and I complain and moan about it with contempt just like my fellow-Londoners.
I think you could also easily and quite correctly substitute the word complacency for contempt in the saying. I recently, after some rather pointed prodding from two good friends, finally went to the doctor to ask about a spot on my shoulder that had been quietly enlarging for a few years now. I have always been blessed (or cursed!) with numerous “beauty spots” as I used to call them as a child, so I am pretty familiar with most of mine. So familiar, in fact, that observing the slow growth of this spot filled me not with alarm but with complacency. It was just a spot, right, not a mole – it was almost perfectly flat – and seeing as I have far more spots now than when I was born, it stands to reason that every spot has to start somewhere, so maybe this one was just another one establishing itself.
Over the past four years or so, I did periodically frown at the spot on my shoulder in the mirror after a shower. Was it getting bigger? Or was I imagining it? It wasn’t really raised; it wasn’t itching and it wasn’t scaly or bleeding – surely it was just a familiar spot with ambition. After all, my serious sunbathing days are behind me and living in London the opportunity to see the sun seldom presents itself (!). I have a shelf full of high factor suncreams that I use when I travel to sunnier climes; I never use sunbeds; and I avoid the sun at midday. And so both my familiarity with the spot and my complacency grew, as did the spot. But after two people in the space of a couple of months wrinkled their noses in distaste at the Damned Spot and suggested I get it checked, I reluctantly admitted that I probably should at least have a doctor look at it. I say reluctantly because I am ridiculously phobic about needles, scalpels and the possibility of pain – which is probably a large part of the reason that I had so carefully cultivated my complacency.
Fast forward a couple of weeks and I found myself on a table in the dermatology clinic of a London hospital, blood pressure off the scale and heart racing in a blind panic as a junior doctor administered local anaesthetic to my shoulder. This was not part of my complacent plan. Four dermatologists had looked through their dermascopes, scratched their chins, conferred and finally said “that’s coming out – today”. Thirty minutes later I was on the Tube home with seven stitches in my shoulder and a feeling of dazed, surreal bewilderment. For the next month, I got on with my life, I went to work, I saw friends and I went travelling, confident in the knowledge and the assurances of dozens of friends that moles are removed as a precaution every day and that the vast majority turn out to be benign. Mine, however, was melanoma, and two weeks later I was back in the hospital, this time with some sedation, to have a further 5mm of healthy skin each side of spot removed as a further precaution, leaving me with a 10cm scar on my shoulder as a reminder of where complacency gets you.
Melanoma is the skin cancer that you don’t really want. Unlike basal or squamous cell carcinomas that can be cut our or bunt off and almost never spread anywhere, melanoma has a yearning to travel and establish itself in distant parts of your body like the brain, the lungs or the breasts. Some melanomas grow so fast that by the time anybody notices them, they have already penetrated deep into the skin into the lymph and blood vessels – and once they get there those cancer cells can travel anywhere in your body and create a new tumour. Mine, however, was the the lazy variety that spreads slowly across the surface of the skin rather than downwards. Surgical excision is considered a complete cure. After an initial period of shock and anger, I have realised that I am incredibly lucky. Lucky that I have friends who cared enough to tell me what I refused to tell myself; lucky that I got a lazy, slow melanoma; lucky that I live in a country where I received prompt and free medical care; lucky that I am planning my next holiday, not my next session of chemotherapy.
Why am I telling you this?
- If you notice a new mole or spot or ANY of your existing ones getting bigger or changing shape, do not delay going to the doctor to get it checked. I am utterly mortified to admit that I first noticed that spot growing a teensy bit larger four years ago and did nothing. My Damned Spot did not crust, bleed or itch; I don’t have a history of cancer in my family; I use sunscreen religiously; and I don’t use sunbeds, so I reasoned that it was not cancer. Don’t try to guesstimate your risk based on a balance of factors – get ANYTHING unusual checked out as soon as you can by a dermatologist.
- You will not meet anybody more phobic of needles, scalpels, hospitals and the possibility of pain than me. But if you are honest with your doctor about your anxiety levels, there is so much that they can do to help. Over my two procedures, NHS doctors went out of their way to accommodate my fears by making sure I saw no surgical instruments; by playing Mozart while they operated; and by giving me conscious sedation drugs to help manage my fear. I can promise you without reservation that any discomfort is not nearly as bad as the fearful anticipation, and a lot better than dying. If I can do this, anybody can.
- If you notice a funny freckle or mole on a partner or friend that is changing or just looks “wrong”, please tell them! I went to the doctor based largely on the comments and encouragement of two good friends, and they may well have saved my life. It is difficult sometimes to say to somebody: “You know, that mole of yours does not look right to me” but you may be saving their life by speaking up. Please, please, please do not ignore the symptoms of potential skin cancer until it is too late – early detection is the single best thing you can do to improve your chances of survival. There’s nothing glamorous about dying of complacency.
The saying of familiarity breeds contempt also holds true with ingredients. Every time a new superfood comes on the market, everybody fawns over it like a movie star (yes, quinoa and chia seeds, I am looking at you!) – they are so exotic and so endlessly fascinating and more exciting than the old familiar ingredients. The stuff we grew up on seems desperately dull by comparison – worthy of contempt, in fact. Take peas for example, one of the very few vegetables that I would willingly eat as a child, and surely a feature of most of my readers’ childhoods. What could be less pulse-racingly exciting than peas, especially in their very English incarnation as mushy peas? But maybe it’s time to shake off our contempt for the old favourites of childhood and reimagine them in a new more glamorous light. Podding fresh peas is one of my favourite summer culinary activities, both relaxing and rewarding. The crunchy texture and sweet flavour of the peas straight from their pods is a million miles removed from the tinned petit pois that I grew up on and as an added benefit, they are packed with Vitamin C and K, as well as being a good source of folates. Here, I boiled d the peas briefly until just crushable with a fork and mixed them with feta and mint to make a glamorous crostini topping – nothing at all to be contemptuous about and perfect for adding a note of glamour to any drinks party.
- 250g fresh shelled peas (or defrosted frozen peas)
- 75 g feta, crumbled
- 1 Tbsp finely chopped fresh mint leaves
- 1 Tbsp Greek yoghurt
- Salt and pepper to taste
- Crackers or slices of toasted baguette
- Bring a small saucepan of salted water to the boil. Add the peas and boil vigorously for 4 minutes. Remove from the heat, drain and transfer to a bowl. Use a fork to lightly crush the peas - remember, you are not looking to mash them: you want them to retain some bigger bits and texture.
- Add the feta, yoghurt and mint to the peas and mix well. Check for seasoning and add salt and freshly ground black pepper to taste.
- Spread a generous dollop of the pea mixture on crackers (I used my favourite Peter's Yard crackers) or slices of toasted baguette and serve with Champagne or a dry white wine.
If you enjoyed this recipe you might also want to have a look at my other recipes. And here are some more blogger recipes featuring peas as the star of the show:
- My pea, feta and basil frittata
- Meeta’s mutter paneer with peas
- Nazima’s spiced potato and pea hash
- Simone’s green peas with feta
- Sarah’s pea soup with cheese and chives
- Ren’s cod, chorizo and pea puree bites
- Kate’s pea and vanilla cake with lemon icing and peashoots
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kate @veggie desserts says
Thank goodness everything turned out okay, Jeanne. What an awful situation. It’s so easy to ignore that nagging suspicion but luckily you have good friends who made you get checked out.
Dannii @ Hungry Healthy Happy says
Oh wow. I am so glad that yours was the lazy kind and that you are okay. being completely honest, I really need to go to the doctors. I have ALWAYS had a lot of moles and I have had a couple of them checked and the doctor referred me to a specialist at the hospital, but I cancelled my appointment because I was scared. I have had the “suspicious” mole for a while and just thought if it was anything bad, then I would know by now.
But what am I scared of? Scared of getting better (if needed). Thanks for posting this – I am going to go back to the doctor.
Elizabeth says
Oh my goodness Jeanne, I’m so glad you’re ok and it was caught in time! How utterly terrifiying! As a ginger with a mother who (I’m quite convinced) never once bought a bottle of sunscreen while I was a child I have a terrible fear of any skin changes. I’m constantly obsessing over anything unfamiliar and, as I grow older, these unfamiliarities are appearing more and more! So glad you’ve got observant friends, and oh my this pea recipe looks fantastic!
Bintu | Recipes From A Pantry says
Glad you are OK. My mum went through a scare a few years ago and although everything turned out alright it was a pretty fraught few weeks.
Jenna @ butter loves company says
Wow, I’m so sorry to hear about that situation! Thank you for reminding us all to be aware of our moles and spots – sometimes we do forget to keep an eye on them. I hope everything is okay!
kellie@foodtoglow says
Wow, Jeanne. What a time you have had. Coming from a hot place like you (Florida in my case) I have had a lot of accrued sun damage from early years of unprotected exposure. My father had melanoma diagnosed when I was very small and his life was saved by the fact that he was being mentored in his medical residency by a renowned oncologist. He himself was complacent about his own skin and the outcome would have been different if his colleague hadn’t been so aware. Good for your friends and good for you for confronting what is a very scary event. I get bits of me lopped off all the time (bcc’s mainly) but the last one was a bit more advanced and on my face. I blithely submitted to twice-yearly checks and excisions but your story makes me feel a bit less complacent. Take care. And thanks for sharing your story. Beautiful, crostini too (peas and feta are always yummy!)
Anu-My Ginger Garlic Kitchen says
These pea feta and mint crostini look delicious and intriguing. Lovely share!
Krista says
I’m so very, very glad that you are OK. XO And thankful for your post. Your words challenged me to take another look at a “funny” spot and I will be getting it checked out soon. XO
Okkie says
Glad your episode with the BIG C went off well. My better half went the breast variety some years back and thanks to a timeous mastectomy has been Cancer free for 20 years.
As far as peas goes Raw is the favourite way to eat them (Sprinkled with sugar olive oil and balsamic
peter @feedyoursoultoo says
Looks great. i have been looking to make a recipe just like this one.
Camilla says
Oh Jeanne I had no idea you had been going through all this and can relate in part to the extreme stress you have gone through. I had a basal cell carcenoma on my nose and went through hell and back! I’m so very glad that you were dealt with quickly and that you braved it out! Lots of hugs Jeanne!Forgive me I’m not a pea and mint fan, I’m just glad you’re alive a well as that’s all that matters!
Helen @ Fuss Free Flavours says
I am so glad that you are OK Jeanne, and have made Ed get an appointment to get some moles looked at. I am fairly aware of my own moles and usually noticed them on other people.
Lovely recipe, perfect now the sun has finally come out!
Carolina da Cucina Carolina says
Dear Jeanne,
Thank you for sharing and I am happy that you are all well again.
With love and a hug,
Carolina
Barbara says
Good grief, Jeanne, you had my chin dropping and I was petrified reading your post. What a way to combine a lovely, cheerful summer recipe with your own life scaring experiences. Brilliant!
All is well that ends well! I am very happy for you and thanks for great friends who will keep pestering us to go see a doctor!
Rosana @ Hot&CHilli Food and Travel Blog says
I always loved peas, still do. I remember sitting with my mother at the kitchen table pea shelling. when I first arrived in the UK I thought what an incredible idea of mushy peas! Love this refreshing post thanks for sharing your journey. R
Catherine says
I love the color and freshness of these crostini…what a wonderful take on a classic. Perfectly cool and refreshing for summer. xo, Catherine
Asha says
Jeanne, read about your ordeal on FB. So sorry you had to go through it and thanks for speaking up about it. I think most of us do not want to have a confirmation of something not nice and do our utmost to avoid it. I know I do. But, it certainly is a wake up call when it happens to someone you know and you realise that it is not a good thing to avoid and much better dealt head on! I have an ultrasound booked for later this year coz they found some random lump. I hate it and would rather not go but know it is better to go than not. Still.. Sigh!!
*HUGS*
Meeta says
Baby I am just so glad that the spook is over. When you emailed me I was just in shock – but this post and the way you handled it on FB is just what is needed to shake people who do not take that step.
WIsh I could enjoy these crostinis with a glass of wine to celebrate!